totally dunno what to do

ok. last year i enjoy a happy life..totally no pressure at all. Even SPM also i take it as nothing(thats why d result didn't hit my target)..The christmas of this year, i think i not going to celebrate or what already, spraying at gurney is fun but two year consercutive spray other people starts to give me a feeling of boring i dunno why like that. last year i dunno why so stupid just duno want to make a friends sad then i din ask a person out until got abit sorry to that person.

this time i got abit lost (i felt),i also dunno why.just a feeling of lost,is just like a bird without its wings,eventhough it want move forward,without its wings how can it fly.The difference between last year and this year is too much, until i can't accept it.maybe there is something that we need to accept at the time that we didn't even ready to accept the truth, is not we don't want to accept the truth,is we dunno how to accept it at that very momment. So now starts to begin to accept the truth.

This few days i enjoy myself shopping with aunty,grandma, mum n my bro...i only know that penang is small but it got want i want which can make me happy...there is a thing that can make me happy but it is impposible to happen(i think), now my situation is worst than a person shouting on top of the mountain,shouting on top of the mountain at least u are not alone (bcuz of echoes)...At this moment, i felt that i standing at somewhere that i dunno, no matter how loud i shout,there is no echoes return...can u imagine the feel of this?

my words maybe is imaginary to u all, but i just trying to exprees my own feel. i not a person that easily to say out what i wanna say,bcuz i scare to let people know what my heart wanna say...when somebody read my heart or my mind, my mouth will be as hard as a stone bcuz i will tell that person that i'm not or sorry i not thinking about it....is quite hard for me.. now, i try to say out bcuz nothing to do now. ^^

when a person told you about something that u dunno, please fully believe the person, trust a person is the best way to understand a person....don't try to argue or to tell the person what is ur thinking (P/S : is u want to understand a person , not want to force people to understand you first)...trust a person is the best.RmB what i said, i may help you one day...

Sometimes, sure we will argue with someone...when two people argue with each other...please remain calm ..(P/S:nobody want to argue with anybody).The arguement starts maybe one has misunderstand something or one has see something different that you have left out which is important...

~misunderstand something is maybe say wrong words or what..

~see something different...this i would like to spend sometime at here..no matter how perfect is a person, there is still a spot that you a weak..
here is some examples...

-human have a weakness at our neck..which is at our back..that is our weak point,when a child use his finger and press at the point of a muscle man, the whole body of the muscle man will be helpless that time.(please don't try it, it makes u pain)

-not everybody have the same MIND, its always imposible to find a person with same thinking because the person is not you..almost same is hard..totally is kinda impossible.haha. it's just like shooting a bullet, and it will reflect back to you..do u think it is possible? haha. anyway this is not the main thing. Just as i said, nobody have same mind so do thinking.. the gene of anybody is special because nobody can have exactly same gene as you have.. BUT if u narrow the scope of view there will still be different views,but there is also always same thinking(alost same)...Just like you see at a half water filled cup, you will say it is half full or half less? this is what i mean by narrowing the scope... If a person what is the word 'life' means to you...this hardly to find same thinking...now catch what i mean? So try to think about others..

THERE IS ALWAYS A REASON IF YOU TELL A PERSON SOMETHING, YOU DIDN'T MEAN TO ARGUE,DIDN'T RESPECT THEM OR WANNA MAKE A PERSON ANGRY...bcuz whatever other people do is just want you to be BETTER and GOOD..maybe in ur view the person is bad always say you this wrong that wrong or whatever...but actually that person is just want you to be better or Good..

Just like u buy a handphone,sure you u know that hp have advantages then only you are attracted to it or even wanna buy it, but if there is somebody tell you the disadvantage of the phone u will start thinking the person is mumbling or want to force you do another thing that u dun like...actually the person is just want you to be more understand about the hp and dun want you to buy something that may be some disadvantage that may bring trouble to you...SO next time when somebody tell something bad about you ...please appreciate it ok?

thanks for reading my post until here...

rmb to listen jay's gui ji below.. i like it so much. XD