totally dunno what to do

ok. last year i enjoy a happy life..totally no pressure at all. Even SPM also i take it as nothing(thats why d result didn't hit my target)..The christmas of this year, i think i not going to celebrate or what already, spraying at gurney is fun but two year consercutive spray other people starts to give me a feeling of boring i dunno why like that. last year i dunno why so stupid just duno want to make a friends sad then i din ask a person out until got abit sorry to that person.

this time i got abit lost (i felt),i also dunno why.just a feeling of lost,is just like a bird without its wings,eventhough it want move forward,without its wings how can it fly.The difference between last year and this year is too much, until i can't accept it.maybe there is something that we need to accept at the time that we didn't even ready to accept the truth, is not we don't want to accept the truth,is we dunno how to accept it at that very momment. So now starts to begin to accept the truth.

This few days i enjoy myself shopping with aunty,grandma, mum n my bro...i only know that penang is small but it got want i want which can make me happy...there is a thing that can make me happy but it is impposible to happen(i think), now my situation is worst than a person shouting on top of the mountain,shouting on top of the mountain at least u are not alone (bcuz of echoes)...At this moment, i felt that i standing at somewhere that i dunno, no matter how loud i shout,there is no echoes return...can u imagine the feel of this?

my words maybe is imaginary to u all, but i just trying to exprees my own feel. i not a person that easily to say out what i wanna say,bcuz i scare to let people know what my heart wanna say...when somebody read my heart or my mind, my mouth will be as hard as a stone bcuz i will tell that person that i'm not or sorry i not thinking about it....is quite hard for me.. now, i try to say out bcuz nothing to do now. ^^

when a person told you about something that u dunno, please fully believe the person, trust a person is the best way to understand a person....don't try to argue or to tell the person what is ur thinking (P/S : is u want to understand a person , not want to force people to understand you first)...trust a person is the best.RmB what i said, i may help you one day...

Sometimes, sure we will argue with someone...when two people argue with each other...please remain calm ..(P/S:nobody want to argue with anybody).The arguement starts maybe one has misunderstand something or one has see something different that you have left out which is important...

~misunderstand something is maybe say wrong words or what..

~see something different...this i would like to spend sometime at here..no matter how perfect is a person, there is still a spot that you a weak..
here is some examples...

-human have a weakness at our neck..which is at our back..that is our weak point,when a child use his finger and press at the point of a muscle man, the whole body of the muscle man will be helpless that time.(please don't try it, it makes u pain)

-not everybody have the same MIND, its always imposible to find a person with same thinking because the person is not you..almost same is hard..totally is kinda impossible.haha. it's just like shooting a bullet, and it will reflect back to you..do u think it is possible? haha. anyway this is not the main thing. Just as i said, nobody have same mind so do thinking.. the gene of anybody is special because nobody can have exactly same gene as you have.. BUT if u narrow the scope of view there will still be different views,but there is also always same thinking(alost same)...Just like you see at a half water filled cup, you will say it is half full or half less? this is what i mean by narrowing the scope... If a person what is the word 'life' means to you...this hardly to find same thinking...now catch what i mean? So try to think about others..

THERE IS ALWAYS A REASON IF YOU TELL A PERSON SOMETHING, YOU DIDN'T MEAN TO ARGUE,DIDN'T RESPECT THEM OR WANNA MAKE A PERSON ANGRY...bcuz whatever other people do is just want you to be BETTER and GOOD..maybe in ur view the person is bad always say you this wrong that wrong or whatever...but actually that person is just want you to be better or Good..

Just like u buy a handphone,sure you u know that hp have advantages then only you are attracted to it or even wanna buy it, but if there is somebody tell you the disadvantage of the phone u will start thinking the person is mumbling or want to force you do another thing that u dun like...actually the person is just want you to be more understand about the hp and dun want you to buy something that may be some disadvantage that may bring trouble to you...SO next time when somebody tell something bad about you ...please appreciate it ok?

thanks for reading my post until here...

rmb to listen jay's gui ji below.. i like it so much. XD

this year almost end already...
this few days, a lot of things happen haha. i say about the thing yesterday night, yesterday night phew ...talk with a friends until very late... that friend told me about my weak point...haha.i admit,is i wuhui something 1st..but this is i realise after that friend told me.i duno how to say my misunderstand...i really zhen1 xin1 to appology for the misunderstand..hope that person know what i mean.i will give time to something..i promise.

...............................

hey i tell u one secret i saw ah piao1 leh. not joke or play with u all d neh. scary leh.whole face white colour eh.if pale ..no blood like that d..
better dont say about it so much ..

i saw it when i was very sick...gastric for almost one week neh.what i eat i will vomit out straight away.. not once only..so terrible. at first i tot i is too hungry or over the time that i usually eat (i usually eat at 1pm)...

One night, i felt very sleepy then i just sleep on my bed,i really sleep ki liao. but suddenly below my rib,above my stomach very pain, is like got knife pushing in to the part...damn pain,,, extremely pain.pain until tear drops u know, can't even say a word.that kind of pain i duno how to descibe is suffocate.lucky i struggle and lay on the sofa at living room...then cant stand up already..

pain more than 1 hour like that,i faster ask my bro fetch me to clinic. then my younger bro faster feed me milk to neutralise my stomach.but i stil vomit out. when they want carry me to the lift..i keep lying on my youngest bro d shoulder..on the way to clinic only saw 'the thing'...my dad also follow we. dad say need go to Lam hwa ee first bcuz it is the nearest hospital to my house..but when i reach the overhead bridge,i told them go to clinic can d bcuz not so pain d..tell u all one thing, my eyes is open that time, but my eyes ball is looking up to the sky... in chinese we say fan1 bai2 yan3...woah.. when reach the clinic..so many people at there..i just see tiok white light...just the light from clinic...i hardly to say a word u know?
at that very moment, i feel like i'm at hell...can't breathe bcuz the pain ....

this is my experience to fight with death of God.haha.i wish i could have more time.........


If I could If I could
就讓音樂變成空氣 讓我和你感應 IT
If I could
If I could


如果不停的走
就能走進你心裡 找一點點感動

如果不停的跑
就能夠逃離自己 莫名的小哀愁

如果不停的求
就能夠替天知道 未來的秘密

如果不停的飛
就能夠自由自在 找到我的天空

如果我能改變 這不完美的世界


If I could If I could
就讓音樂變成空氣 讓我和你感應 IT

If I could If I could
就讓夢想變成旋律 但願有你傾聽 IT

If I could
If I could
Ah....


如果不停的求
就能夠替天知道 未來的秘密

如果不停的飛
就能夠自由自在 找到我的天空

如果我能改變 這不完美的世界


If I could If I could
就讓音樂變成空氣 讓我和你感應 IT

If I could If I could
就讓夢想變成旋律 但願有你傾聽 IT

If I could
If I could

这几天。。

这几天去了gurney,BJ and pragin...与朋友玩了是高兴的。。去gurney 的时候CX 吵着说要吃海鲜，只好用costal highway（本比较远）的路。。。就在码头那里吃午餐。

我们六人叫了煎白鲳鱼，大葱蛋，虾膏，豆芽。。。RM38而已。。最好笑的是那里的员工很搞笑。。一直问我们。。。要加饭吗。饭没有算钱的。。哈哈。本来CX要添多一碗饭。。我们马上告诉那aunty说他要两碗。。哈哈。真的来两碗。。吃到他饱。^^

到了gurney..现到达red box。。。心顿时觉得在流泪。。不知道做什么。。原来我在那里与不在的她有美好的回忆。。我忍住不流泪。。很难受。

走过很多地方。。。都有她的影子。最惨就是在戏院前。。。想起了stardusk更是要硼溃了。。 结果就躲在一旁打snooker打得还不烂，虽然开始手有一点不顺利。在那里呆了一小时多。哈哈

有去one stop玩ding ding..看到的又是她在玩游戏机的影子。。。幸好在跑车的时候还跑出了第二名。。有四个朋友加一个要跟我们‘斗’的大人。。他用manual 我们全用auto。。。开始是他领先的可是被我的技术吓坏了，所以从第二圈开始我一直领先下去。。。最惨的就是明明不能赢了就故意撞我的车尾。。。幸好我拿了第二。。。而第一则是KO拿去。。最好笑的是我的朋友已开始以为有一条路是short cut（其实是pit stop）他马上喊做么我的车慢去的。。当别人告诉他的时候他才恍然大悟。。几好笑一下short cut. XD

到了pragin 买了长裤和短裤。。。到处都是她的影子。。。戏院啦，拍大头帖，游戏机店,CD RAMA, Hong kong video。。。。太多了

今天的心情是无情天。。。没高兴，没伤心。。。

轨迹这首歌是送给她。。希望她有听见。。。



我还想她？（在去着gurney,BJ,one stop和pragin 的时候听着的歌）

不清楚

适合不适合，对情侣来说是很重要的。。。
其实我觉得天下并没有谁不适合谁，一段感情如果互相抱容，互相让步，互相付出，互相体谅，最后还要有忠诚的心。人没有百分百和零鸡蛋的相遇，人与人本来相遇就只有50% ，加上刚才的互相的。。。。。才会有100%的相遇。男生最难学会的就是包容（谢霆峰说的）。以前一直抱怨说这个不够，那个不够好。。。。最近比较有时间想想，我怎么那么的幼稚，怎么我不想想身边的人付出的东西已经超出他们所能，我却没有顾忌到别人的感受，太自私了和霸道。在最完美的时候却不满足，在失去的时候才学会了珍惜这两个字。后悔了有用吗？不清楚

濒临绝种的爱 4

本剧故事 纯属虚构
如有雷同 实属巧合


萍 ：你能给我时间考虑要不要出席那烤肉会好吗？
胜 ：好。。
萍 ：你别抱太大的希望，因为我不知道我妈肯让我去吗。。
胜 ：明白。而且，你又对我周围的朋友不是很熟悉。。我会尊重你的决定的。

。。。。。

烤肉会前夕。。
不知道她会出席吗。。一天了还没答复我。。还是问问她看。。

胜 ：萍，你决定了吗？
萍并没有给胜直接回答。。犹豫了一下
萍 ：烤肉会是在哪里？
胜 ：灵的家。有兴趣吗？
萍 ：有是有。。。可是。。
胜 ：其实你怕我没说错吧？如果我没去你会去吗？
萍 ：不知道呢，我可能去一些生活营。。不然呆在家里会闷的。

当晚，他一直在床上翻滚，翻来覆去，数绵羊，换方向睡，开冷气，喝温奶都不能睡。。。突然眼睛瞟过闹钟。。哇，凌晨两点了。。明天肯定比熊猫还要大的黑圆圈了。。。

不管了，反正没事做就听听看电台半夜的节目。。。
。。。988的听众大家好，我是带班DJ丽叶。其实有听众留言告诉我说我很喜欢你的节目，因为让人很轻松很愉快。。。

这时就想不如我也去留言看。。丽叶我是第一次在你的部落格留言。今天不知道为什么自己睡不着觉，躺在床上的前一刻我眼睛是比石头还重的，可是一躺下去就很精神。。。我不想有熊猫眼。。

一寄之后，丽叶就在节目中回应我的留言。。胜，不知道现在你睡着了吗？其实你的头脑是不是有些问题缠绕着你呢？总觉得，人睡不着有很多不同的原因。。如果你还没睡，不妨可以告诉我是什么事情

我最近约了一个女生去朋友的烤肉会，可是我的朋友不知道她拒绝我之前的表白了，而且他们以为我和她还是兄妹，我不知道如何开口。。 现在我怕的是她不肯出席。。。

萍在那晚也是还没睡，更巧秒的是她听到胜的留言。。

萍会知道那是胜的留言吗？丽叶会给胜什么回答呢？萍听了丽叶的回答后会做出什么决定呢?

。。。。。。。。。。。。

对不起这几天并没有很多的时间写。敬请原谅

this few days

19nov..

haha. when i woke up.suddenly i realise that stil got one month to go...to reach 19dec.. last year d 19dec can say that it is my happiest day in my life.. i can't deny it because that day is extremely happy.i don't know this year got that chance again or not. hope can.. *actually i also duno that person notice this or not.bcuz i just wana prove myself that i'm not.....(hehe.2 people know only excluding me)*

22nov..saturday.

i went to qb. my cousin belanja his father,uncle,gf,his sister,my bro,me n my youngest bro to eat at dragon-i. the photo of the food i will upload soon. oh god..when i walk in... i saw my old friends, the captain there, the waiteress and waiter all is old friends..haha. but they kinda forget who am i already haha. @.@ duno why. afterthat we went to my old working place ..and eat sundae..hehe cousin bro belanja again ^^ but $26.90 leh. quite expensive.

this few days everyday sit in d house.. haha. nothing to do.. so didnt go anywhere. thats all for this few days. kinda boring i think.

濒临绝种的爱 3

本剧故事 纯属虚构
如有雷同 实属巧合

上集。。。

胜 ：萍， 你曾经告诉我你对一个人有不错的印象，那个人不是我对吧？那是另一个男生来的。应该是峰。。。。那个上次约你和他整堆朋友去看哈里波特的吗？

萍 ：好感英文是good feel.只是觉得这是不错的朋友罢了，你想去哪里？
胜 ：好感也是一种感觉啊，不是吗？不是感觉是什么？
萍 ：这都不是那个感觉。。
胜 ：但是不是他？
萍 ：不是他啦？
胜 ：那你的他是谁？
。。。。。

*华语和英语的意思有时在字眼上可能会有一点差异，所以如果字眼的误会你遇到字眼上的误会。。。请记得你和他/她都没错。。时时记住要宽容大量的去接受别人的想法。。 不要去争吵，因为这是无谓的*

萍 ：你可以不要一直寄短讯给我吗？来来去去都一样的。。。什么给一次机会啦。我现在对你没有feel你叫我怎样接受你？我不想欺骗任何人的感情。我知道你是真心，但不要这样好吗？

胜 ：当我说我喜欢你的时候， 我才刚刚考完试，也没有时间去追你还是什么。我以为在哥妹的
关系中，我们建立了不少的默契，不少的感觉，我还以为我多心去想你会对我还有感觉。。。原来我错了。。。

萍 ：你没有错，只是不是时候。。。我都没有心情要去谈恋爱，所以没有去喜欢人或接受人。。。

胜，也无言以对，眼泪都笑了。。眼泪在眼眶内打滚，可是人的眼睛没有汽车的抹煞器，不然在流泪的时候，不会让人觉得难看。。。

*世界上有什么东西是闪闪发光的，味道是咸咸的。谜底在最后面。。。别先偷看答案咯 ^^*

豪 ：胜，这个星期我们几个朋友在灵的家一起烤肉好吗？记得请你的妹妹噢。
（豪是胜的好朋友，而灵是豪的女友）
胜 ：我们在看看吧。不知道能不能约她出来。

。。。。。。。。

胜 ：萍， 还记得上次介绍给你认识的朋友-豪？
萍 ：记得。
胜 ：他希望你能出席他搞的烤肉会。。。你可以出席吗？
萍 ：几时？我不知道能不能去。。
胜 ：这个星期六，还有5天的时间。。
萍 ：那你又去吗？
胜 ：有，如果我有去，你还会去吗？

萍知道胜有出席那烤肉会。。她还会去吗？她会选择去还是不去？胜为什么不当面告诉豪说，萍不是他的妹妹了。。而是朋友。。。为什么呢？请记得支持下一集。。。

谜底：眼泪。^^ 猜对吗？





眼泪都笑了